I asked God a few weeks ago to show me and teach me where my faith is lacking especially where I do not see or recognize it. A couple days later I jumped in my car and drove to the store to get some items for dinner. This particular day I was searching for items everywhere but I could not find what I needed to make a basic pot of chili. This was the day God showed me where my faith was lacking.
While driving home I remembered the scriptures that speak about how God told the Israelites, through Moses, to only gather enough for the day and not to save for the next day.
Unfortunately they did not listen. They hoarded selfishly because they thought they would not have enough or run out. When they did that, their food rotted.
God wanted to teach a lesson on provision through faith. Their lack of faith and dependence on God was exposed. This is where God answered my prayer regarding my lack of faith.
I have several things I'm asking God to provide for but I'm hoarding spiritual gifts for fear of lack just like the shelves at my local grocery store. My spiritual hoarding is no different than the hoarding that I see all around me. Actually mine is worse because I'm realizing my hoarding is deeply rooted with excuses I have made to not share all my gifts for many years. Right now as I look at the pictures my community is hoarding out of temporary panic because of a pandemic. On the other hand I'm hoarding my gifts as part of my normal daily routine.
When I look at these grocery store pics I see myself spiritually panicking to overstock the gifts God has given me in efforts to have enough for tomorrow. When God is the source of provision there is no need to do this.
I'm not sure if this will help anyone but I'm now praying and asking God to forgive me and others like myself. I no longer want to hoard what was given to me to bless others. I'm also thanking God for showing me and teaching me where my faith and trust in HIM is lacking.
Exodus 16:19-20
Then Moses said to them, “No one is to keep any of it until morning.”However, some of them paid no attention to Moses; they kept part of it until morning, but it was full of maggots and began to smell. So Moses was angry with them.
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